It’s been a while since I posted anything, methinks. I should remedy that.
I’ve gone through a bit of time where I haven’t drawn anything. Maybe about a week or so? I haven’t come up with any finished pieces since the beginning of October. Other than that, it’s been mostly sketch sketch sketching away. I truly admire artists who can totally finish a piece every week or so, but I’m just not like that. I’d love to be like that, but at this moment, I’m not. I don’t know how they do it. Whatever they’re eating or drinking… I want it.
More often than not, I feel like I have to bash my head against my desk to get ideas to tumble out. It’s not to say that I dislike drawing and it’s a chore, because the situation is quite the opposite. I love to draw. It’s my life. I can’t see myself doing anything other than that.
The first image, all in red and white, I literally had to beat out of my head. You don’t even want to see the previous attempts. They were rather sad. The second drawing that looks like a funky mock-up for a band t-shirt (or so I have been told) came much more naturally. I wanted to redraw the face I had been struggling with the previous night and it clicked. Then I knew what I wanted to do with the rest of the picture. I wish this sort of serendipitous moment happened to me more often.
I’m not a doctor, but I do believe the prescription is more drawing. More drawing, more fucking up, more realizing what works, what doesn’t work, how things are supposed to look, more reference, more trial and error.
I know this blog is supposed to be about me saying “Hey, look at me, I’m awesome!” but I’m only human. I’m also a melodramatic perfectionist, so that definitely does not help.
I don’t remember where I was going with this, but I think the bottom line is that art is not as easy as people always assume. It’s not just “Oh you get paid to doodle all day! that’s not a real job!” A good friend of mine, who wanted to get more involved in drawing, once told me “I’ve been trying to take up drawing and you know what I realized? There are a lot of things that can go wrong!” It was so simply put, but I have never heard anything more accurate.